Here's My Life

The End of Twenty Ten

As I sit her typing this blog, I keep thinking about the past decade. How there are something I wish that I could just go back and change, the regrets that I have that I go "if I could just chage that moment" or "that circumstance" "just change that choice". I think iff I could go back and change thing, that things would be different yes.. but because of those moments, yah even the bad choices and the pain I have felt and the things I had to deal with because of those choices. At the end of the day I wouldnt change them.. because they changed me... some may say "but Lisa somethings you did you hurt other and you wouldnt want to change that?". Yah I would want to change the hurt that I cause people, I dont want people to hurt because of my stupidity. But you see through all that God changed me.

I think alot of times we think, just that the "what if's" and the things we regret and wish we could change, and we dont see that somtimes God uses things like our stupid choices and he takes out nasty mess and changes it into somthing beatiful. That he begans to mold us and change us, because its in those moment we realize we messed up that we become broken before God, and I believe it's though our brokeness that he begans to change us. (Psalm 34:18 ESV The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit)

It's never easy knowing your past, and things you did wrong, but its amazing to know that God it's finished with you yet. That he is willing to clean you up heal you and change you into the person he created you to be? SO dont look to the past with regret, because the next decade will look diffrent, people will see changes in you as along as you dont look at the what if's in life, and look to the one what has a plan for your life no matter your mistakes.